BIARLAH KITA TIDAK BERTEMU

hari ini....

entah la,i don't know how 2 describe my feeling that time...after 3 year,i still can't manage my feeling... 3 years i try 2 forget it, i make myself strong but sometime i feel like i'm not strong enough...kaaka masih lg rasa SAKIT...sakit yg amat dihati ini...adakah kerana kaaka terlalu mnaruh harapan,salahkah kaaka terlalu mnyanyangi dia??? until now,i admit masih ada rasa syg untuk dirinya...but i know n kaaka betul2 sedar yg kita tak mungkin bersatu...one of my fren said,cara trbaik ialah fall in love again..so,i can forget the past...but i'm not ready yet,i need a time that i can forget everything...i need another 2 years coz kaaka pernah bca satu artikel " masa tuk melupakan sma dgn masa perkenalan"...kaaka buntu,kaaka xthu apa yg kaaka rsa right now when i see him...mgapa msti dia muncul saat kaaka btl2 leh go on with my life...xckp lg ke dia sakitkan hati kaaka??apa salah kaaka???evrytime i see him,i can feel something in my heart..adakah sedih???marah???sakit hati???tiap kali dia muncul,emosi kaaka terganggu,kaaka hlng fokus...i dnt know what happen 2 me...please,kaaka nk lupakan semua nh...totally forget everything!!!

YA ALLAH,ampunkanlah segala dosa2ku...terimalah taubatku...aku mohon ya Allah,kau kuatkan diriku,kuatkan lah hatiku...aku yakin dgn janjiMU...pasti ENGKAU telah mengaturkan yg terbaik untukku...ya Allah,kau tabahkanlah jiwaku dlm mgharungi ujianMU ini...aku hnyalah insan lemah,aku hanyalah sorg wanita yg mndambakan kasih seorang adam...aku perlukan adam tuk mbimbing aku,aku perlukan adam untuk melangkah bersama mncari redhaMU...ya ALLAH,jadikanlah aku insan berguna,berikanlah yg terbaik dlm hidupku..kuatkan imanku,kuatkan taqwaku...YA ALLAH,YA RAHMAN,YA RAHIM....

i believe everything happen 4 a reason,people change so that you can learn how to let go. things go wrong,so that you can appreciate them when they're right. you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. and sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together..

...:::...hAnya dLm hIdup kaAka...:::...